One of the most important ministries of the Church throughout its history has been providing spiritual care to the sick. The Ecumenical Patriarchate has always being sensitive to the needs of this ministry from the years of the Byzantine Empire up until now. Its clergy are active in providing pastoral care to the ill, both on a parish level and in specialized facilities. read more...
December 9, 2018
I want one thing - to be with You
Let us love Christ. Let Him be our only hope and care. Let us love Christ only for Him; never for ourselves. Let Him put us wherever He wants. Let Him give us whatever He wants. We should not love Him for His gifts. It is egotistical to say: “I want Christ to put me in a beautiful place”. It is more correct to say: “My Christ, whatever Your love wants; as long as I live in your love.
Poor me, what can I say,…. I am very weak. I have not managed to love Christ very much, to have my soul desire Him. I feel that I am very behind [in doing so]. This is how I feel. I have not gotten to where I want to be; I do not live this love. But I do not dismay. I trust in the love of God. I tell Christ: “I know that I am not worthy. Send me wherever Your love wants. This is what I desire, this is what I want. I always worshiped you in my life.”
When I was gravely ill and about to leave for the heavens, I did not want to think of my sins. I wanted to think about the love of my Lord, my Christ, and about eternal life. I did not want to have fear. I wanted to go to the Lord thinking of His goodness, of His love. And now that I am approaching the end of my life, I have no anxiety or agony; my thoughts are that I will present myself to the Lord at the Second Coming and Christ will tell me: “My fellow, how can you come in here without the proper wedding garment?” I will lower my head and say: “Whatever You want my Lord, whatever Your love wants. I know that I am not worthy. Send me wherever Your love wants. I am worth of hell. It is enough that I be with you, even if You put me in hell. I want one thing. One thing I ask: that I be with you wherever and however you want.
St. Porphyrios of Kafsokalivia